Thursday, May 29, 2008
Now I really know how I've put my mum in difficult positions. . .
Well, first of all, I retained during Secondary three and had to go through the process of studying it all over again. PLUS ! The hard things is there are new syllabuses that are required for me to study. I'm not worried about going through the same life again even though I'm still one year older than everybody in the class. It's not the new surroundings, not new people, but me.
I didn't think of it, neither had I realize it. My mum had been the one suffering throughout the life of my second year in Secondary Three.
Let me explain. . .
Why is it my mum ? Why can't it be anybody else ? Firstly, my dad's always not around in Singapore and my mum's the only one who's staying here with me.
She faces alot of people in one day. Just picture this.
Customer #1 : You have any child ? How old are they ?
Mum : Yeah, one 17 and one 15 this year.
Customer #1 : Oh ! One Sec 5 or poly and the other one sec 3 right ?
What do you think my mum's gonna say ? I don't even know myself. What if this happens to 80% of her everyday customers ? How is she gonna feel ? She don't know whether to lie or say the truth. It would be against her own conscience if she's gonna lie. It would be shameful to know that her son had retained. She's in a difficult position. Alright, maybe it's gonna be common to lie to a customer. So what if, it's a relative ? How would my mum feel ?
So it's only after a year , five months and 29 days then I realized. I'm so sorry mum, I've let you down. But I'm gonna stand up once again and prove to you that this is not a shameful thing. Through failures I will realize my own mistakes and I won't make the same mistakes again. I promise.
Guys, don't think you're a hero. Is it cool ? Rebelling ? Here and there ? In school or at home ? What do you gain from it ? Rebelling only brings you more trouble. Somehow, it would also affect your close ones indirectly. Come on, be yourself. Don't act as a punk or a gangster just to earn people's attention. 'Cuz in the end, it's you who's gonna loose out. Not them. Attract attention using positive ways.
Remember, when you earn someone's respect for you one day, someone else in this world will hate you.
In general, just, be yourselves.
Don't be like me, once before I realized my mistakes.
Look closely around you, who are you with ? What made you this way ? Is it you ? Or is it, them ?
8:22 PM
